"To accomplish great things for thee"
A worthy thought...though I deem it foolish after years of striving to do great things and finding them dissolve in my fingers as life took me in different paths. "Great things" "Significant contributions" - words to stir my soul. But, reality is that I am a small, older woman with some experience in the areas of innocence, naivete, rebellion, fear and pride. Thinking myself under rated, overlooked and dismissed, I spent a good amount of time discouraged in the first 50 years of my life. Now that I am 68 and have a healthier perspective, I can acknowledge that although I have no great titles or positions to claim, I can say I "showed up", "followed through", "created new ideas" and participated in leadership in the tiny corner of my world.
My greatest desire is to stay authentic and dependent on the Lord knowing that life is a brief mist. I have no more illusions of grandeur. Fragile and poised on the edge of death at all times is the human being. Yet, we strut about, make pronouncements and stagger at our perceived importance. The Lord laughs at kings, says the Psalmist. How is it that He would pay attention to one small woman. Yet, how I love Him and want to return to Him all He's given to me. That is my joy...to take what I have been given and create a blessing for Him, a small, thanksgiving offering made from the stuff of my life. The Blessing House is just that. It is a blessing turned back to the One who blessed me in the beginning.
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